Sitting in This Feeling

I am uncomfortable. I can’t seem to fully relax. I know this feeling is caused by the fact that I got laid off from my job, and in these times of economic uncertainty, this is not the best timing.

In my mind, I know that events such as these can cause irrational anxiety and fear around all the things that I have no control over. Knowing all this doesn’t stop it from happening, nor does it improve my feelings regarding the fact that I no longer have a paycheck.

I am not a fan of totally positive thinking. Thinking positively has its place, but it can mask certain emotional energies that one can and should take advantage of. I am harnessing this uncomfortable energy to land a new job.

Getting Hired Again

I finally have my resume where I want it in terms of words; now I have to improve the layout and insert that improved copy to my LinkedIn profile.

I need some time

Today is a recovery day.

Keeping my Mind and Body Going

Working Out is Key

My typical workout routine usually goes six weeks on and then two weeks off to heal. I am currently finishing up my second week off, and I miss my strength workout. I have been doing my cardio workout plus stretching. I didn’t realize how much I get from regular bodyweight strength training. Those endorphins are addictive. I must keep up the activity to boost my positive attitude.

Taking Time to Do Some House Cleaning

I am starting to upgrade the design of this very website. I will begin by switching out the type pairings and updating the vertical spacing.

A Comforting Routine

The most challenging part of not having a job is the loss of routine. Getting up and doing the same things each day is more comforting than you think.

Those feelings stack up nicely with the ones about looming financial instability. I told myself when this started that my job now is to get another job. It helps that I get up each morning and do my best to get another job, but honestly, I can only keep that up for about 4 hours before getting overwhelmed. My first step to returning that routine comfort is to post to this website daily, maybe redesign it as I go. It’s not an eight-hour shift, but I stop when I have no more applications to fill out and then mess around with the website a bit.

I also have hobbies that keep me busy, such as rebuilding my studio, building Gundam models, and playing video games. Still, I can’t completely relax while doing those things with all these unanswered questions in my head.

However, I must be doing something right because, according to my ring, I have never slept better than I am right now.

The Lawn Won’t Mow Itself, but Taxes Take Priority

Unfortunately, I had to pay my taxes yesterday. Great News, I got a refund this year, and it didn’t even take me that long. Anyway, I planned to mow my lawn yesterday until I remembered what day it was. So, I deferred that task until today. Hopefully, this weather holds.

I also want to get my music back online; my whole synth setup has been offline since I reconfigured my office. That conversation brings up a whole new subject. It’s time for my website, this website, to transform its design. I will start with the type design first. Then, change the vertical spacing and move on to integrating graphics. We will see what pops out on the other end. Time to go look for some type combination inspiration.

Wow, I just discovered that my Documents folder defaults to the One Drive version instead of my local drive. I am going to have to fix that soon. What a pain.

Monday, Monday

Good Morning

Today I am working hard on redoing my resume.

Since leaving FSCJ, I haven’t paid much attention to it until I needed to change jobs. Most of the positions in my career I have gotten using my contacts or a conversation, and the resume was only a technicality for HR. This one is different. This is the first time I have ever had to find a job while not having one. This is all a new experience for me.

So, super tweaking my resume to get past all the technology used to organize the piles of applications is a good idea right now. I also appreciate that tweaking my resume is getting my head where it needs to be for the inevitable interview.

Of course, this is just the morning. I have so many things I have to do to get my life in order today. I have to get my medical insurance squared away, and I am still shopping for that. I should also make sure my prescriptions are filled before the medical insurance transition. The life of a type-1…always trying to track down my next medication. Not to mention the front lawn needs to be mowed for the first time since I put the new sod down. No matter what…Mondays are always filled to the brim.